The phrase has gr8 importance in ma life. its smdng i have felt. i was good frnds wit ma grandpa(mom's dad). when i was a kid i liked him a lot.played a lot with him. we used to get along very nicely. i dnt remembr mch of ma childhood. jst keep colctin some vague memories from the photographs. slowly i grew. may thing changed in me. i dnt knw y and how, but strtn keepin a distance from ma grandpa. used to hate him. used to insult him a lot, indirectly. may be the teen spirit in me made me do so. i dnt remembr any particular reason fr ma behaviour. but i was cruel. ma behaviour hurt him a lot. one day he fell ill. i went to coimbatore to meet him. he was admitted there. when he saw me, he said am sory because of me you had to travel so much nd come. i dnt knw y but i felt dfrnt all of a sudden. ma attitude twrds him changed. i strtd feelin guilty. i was ashamed of maslf.
i came bak 2 pondy, nd was only tinkin bout ma next trip 2 kerala. thot i would meet him, apologize, may be. get things right and back to normal. finally the day came. i was on ma way to kerala. throughout the journey i was only tinkin about how to talk 2 him, what extly i shud say etc.. i reachd der. smdng ws unusual. there wer lots of ppl gathered there. i went inside. i would never be able to forget that scene.
all that i wanted to say or share is still within me. he left me, without hearin a word. without saying a word. if only i had talked to him before i would have felt better.
similar was the case with ma grandma(ma fathers mom). she was in icu. i was in good terms with her. happened last yr. when i heard she was in icu i called her up. ma uncle piked up. told she is very weak at presnt.recoverin. call tomorrow, she would be fine and would talk 2 u.. am still waitin fr dt day. that tomorow never came. she passed away that nite..
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dude tat one was really touching,it really made sense.
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